Toegther Forever

Happy one year baby. I love you.

Truth is..

Truth is, I miss you. I miss us. I miss talking on the phone every night. Hearing the words I love you roll of your tongue. Feeling your lips against mine, the moisture of the sweet taste. How they fit perfectly against mine. I miss waking up to you and you kissing me good night. Or even walks by the park. I miss the way that on my birthday you were the first thing I woke up to and we fed the baby ducks at the park. Do you miss me? If you wanted me you'd pick up the phone and call. How's college gonna be? Is it gonna be how we pictured it? Us living together, always being with each other. I hope it still happens. Bc I love you.

Being alone...

Well life is pretty tragic. Mom is away at business, my brother doesnt live with me, i found out i dont qualify for hope today, and im retaking the sat in a month. My life fucking sucks. Oh and to top it all off, weve been texting. WHY? i miss it so much to where it makes us texting feel like were sort of back together. why cant we be? bc im a heart breaker, two-faced bitch. Also, no one ever has time for me. Nobody wants to hang out with me and keep me company. All there is to do is cry, i hate crying. It ruins makeup. If you want to rescue repunzel from her awful tower, feel free. I'd love to be rescued.

Do you remember what happened here? Because I sure do.

Do I miss you or do I miss what we had?

I think about how a guy should really treat a girl and the only person that comes to mind is you. I feel like I'm in love but am I in love with the wrong guy? He may seem perfect but maybe he isn't as good as he used to be. What me and you had was special. It was never wrong. There was not one bad moment of our relationship. Can you take me back? Can you ask me to be yours again? Because I truly miss you. I know what mistake I made and I promise to never ever make that mistake again. It sucks that I had to learn the hard way and may never get you back again, but I did learn. I learned that I love you, more than anyone I have ever loved before. I run. Running from things that scare me is what I do best. Fear of the commitment. Maybe I just need to stop and be committed. Not such a bad thing, right? No. Baby come back. Kiss me. Hold me. Tell me you love me. Laugh with me. Smile with me. Sing loud to the radio with me. I miss you, and I hope you miss me too.

It's perfect :)

Gotta get my tan on!

Dream Apartment..

When you were little did you ever imagine you living on your own outside of your parents house? I sure did. To get my free space. Did I want roommates or did I want to live alone? Well roommates mean company, but alone means quite. Girls cause drama. And guys are chill but very very very dirty. I don't want stains on my toilet from when they don't let the seat up, or food everywhere. I want it to be my "clean" home to come to. I've always had that fantasy to live with the opposite sex though. They might get on my nerves and push my buttons sometimes but there worth it. Just think, no girls equals no problems. Although they have to be respectful to my privacy and my studies. Well off of the boy topic. My apartment has to have a balcony. I love the breeze of the cool air blowing on my shoulders. A rocking chair reading the book of the week. A tall glass of lemonade and shades to block the sun. I would decorate it just how my mom taught me to do. Make it feel like home. Now my bedroom is going to be the best of them all. A king size bed, chic bedding. To make me feel lady like. My obsession is pictures. Cork board all over one wall with pictures of everything. Things i've photographed, friends, family, magazine clippings, concert tickets, movie slips. Anything you can imagine. My bathroom would be my place of cleanliness. I have always loved my initials being on everything. Including my shower curtain. A black vintage with hot pink cHa initials on it. White towels with black cHa on them. A magazine bin for all of the latests. My kitchen would consist of only healthy organic foods. I am NOT gaining the freshman fifteen. My mother would absolutely kill me! Favorite items that would always be in my refrigerator would include oven roasted turkey, Colby jack cheese, activia vanilla yogurt, peaches and cottage cheese (best combo EVER!), cantaloupe, apples, grapes, cucumbers, green peppers, salad mixings, light ranch, soy sauce, diet mountain dew, water bottles, pickles, eggs,  organic milk, and of course my daily glass of orange juice. Man talking about all of this food is making me hungry! But I cant leave out my freezer, tyson chicken, veggie pizza, microwavable pancakes (not the best at flipping regular pancakes), sherbert ice scream, and my fat free sugar free popsicles. I can imagine it now. My living room is going to be a place of my comfort. A chic, long couch. For max three people. I love tan. Tan goes with everything. A big TV, don't want to strain my eyes. I have have have to have Comcast. On demand is a must in my life. Picture frames will be all throughout the house. Paintings to fill up empty spaces. I have always wanted to have a dog. But, it would be like taking care of a baby so I don't think that is going to happen. My dream apartment will come true. After this year! Than I'm off!


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