Why do you love me?

Dear Brice,

You ask me over and over why i love you. Well here i will list the many reasons why and how i love you. Ever since the first day i met you, i knew you knew how to treat me. You treat me like i'm a lady. You open doors for me, you pay for my meals, you give me compliments appropriately, and you make me feel worth it. I love how when i look you in the eyes all the feelings are out in the open. I can feel your feelings for me as if they were my own. I love how when i'm crying you hold me even though i tell you to let go. You don't let go because you want to let me know that you will always be there. I love when i can feel your heart beat against my chest when i lay on you, or when i can feel you breathing when i'm laying on your chest sleeping. I love you because you are one of the few people that understand me. You know me better than people that have know me for years on end. I love how we laugh at the stupidest things together. Your horse noises, your farts, your burps. I love how i am so comfortable with you. Now that I can fart around you, burp, poop, etc etc. It is very rare to find a relationship like ours. We have been dating for a month now and it feels like i have been dating you for 573495738739 years. You know me like the back of your hand, and i know you like the back of mine. I feel like i am apart of your family and i hope you feel like you are apart of mine. I love how you can show my mom that i am happy just by making me smile or laugh. I love you because you love me. But to sum things up, i love you because you made me the person i am today. Careless and free. I have no care for the world now, now that i am with you. You make me feel invincible. Like i can conquer the world. As long as your by my side that is. I hope you love me as much as i love you. But my last words of this letter will be this, i love you brice pierce mercier.

Your love,
     Cassie.

Ten Years From Now...

Where will I be ten years from now? I want to be traveling around the world. I want to be doing what I love which is taking pictures. Taking pictures of the wild, of people of different cultures, of the sun set in a different place everyday. I want to be able to live life differently than just by my everyday, regular life style. There are so many things I want to be able to achieve but I cant seem to pick the right one for me. Wether it's working with the mentally disabled, or starting my own business in photography, or even studying marine biology and going off and working with endangered animals. I want to be able to do all of these things but just dont know if it is possible. My dad told me a story today of one of his friends daughters that studied photo journalism. She took two years of photo journalism in college and is now traveling around the world. She travels with the navy and takes photographs around the world. How sick would that be!? I wish I could just make my mind up of what I want to do. I want something that will pay my bills with no problem. Maybe I should progress in the medical field like I had planned. Doctor Hanna, doesnt sound so bad. OBGYN, therapist, surgeon, etc etc. Fuck if I know. I know I will find something. Maybe it will be all three of those things, maybe it will be two, or maybe it will just be one. I know GOD will pick the right one for me. If I had to make my mind up right now of what I wanted to go to school for it would be photography. I would take that than and start traveling. Traveling for national geographic and take pictures around the country, outside of the country even. Do what I love to do and be able to do what I have always wanted to do with it. TRAVEL.

Traveling.

On the road with my favorite person in the world, I am not wanting this trip to end. But at the end of this trip I will be with the person that always knows how to put a smile on my face. As much as I do not want this trip to end, I know at the end of it another vacation will just start. I can gladly say that I, Cassie Avery, am the LUCKIEST girl on this entire planent. How did I score a perfect guy like mine? I don't know how I did it, but I did it and he is not going anywhere. One day I wanna start a family with him, have a big house, kids, me and him happily together. It's just us against the world, and let me tell you something. We are definitely winning. Were unbeatable. On my way to San Diego, I wish he were here with me but I will be with him in eight days!! San Diego, the place where I was born and havnt been there since. Im psyched! Sea world, beaches, on base, hotels with pools, everything you can possible think of. I'm the luckiest girl EVER! In a week and a half I have been to three different states that are pretty chill. Colorado, Arizona, and California bitches. Southern Cali here I come!!!!

I heart you.

If you think that no one loves you, just remember that I always will.

Money, just a reason to stop your dreams....

Money sucks, unless you have lots of it. Coming from a family who has to work their ass's off just to be able to put food on the table, it is kind of hard to be able to follow your dreams. All I want to do is to be able to go to school to get the degree that I want to pursue my life in. Is that so hard to ask for? Now I am most likely going to have to get loans and pay them off during my whole fucking life. Two years of photography, and two years of business? I don't know what the hell I am going to do, all I know is that I want to go to the art institute of Atlanta, and I am going to go there no matter what it takes. As we speak right, right now I only have forty dollars and eighteen cents in my bank account. That is NOTHING. Nobody is hiring in Augusta what so ever, so how the hell am I supposed to start saving up for anything that I need? You know about a half a year ago I had everything. I had money, a gas card that I could use whenever I needed gas, I actually had a car, a great life, and a future. I have no future without money....and my parents will only pay for so much. If only I was smart, than I could qualify for grants and scholarships, but hell no. I am definitely not smart. I am the dullest crayon in any crayon box. All I got to make any dream to come true is finding pennies on heads, smoking until I get to luckies, making wishes at 11:11, and praying. God loves me, hopefully he can help me out with my dreams.....

Letters of love.

To Brice, from Cassie.

So the first day that I met you I knew from the beginning we had a connection. I remember it like it was yesterday. Remember what we talked about? We talked about you liking the fat chick? Haha so I got that excuse to text you. I wanted you to be my roommate for the week but it didn't work out, :). Now look at us, two weeks later and we are two teenagers in love. I can definitely say that I found the guy for me. You are definitely him. I want to be with you for the rest of my life Brice. Through thick and thin we will ALWAYS be by each others side. Even though I don't think we will ever fight. Which is a great thing. I love you so much, it hurts inside. One year from now though will be when we can officially start our forever. Living together, than from there we can make our dreams come true, and I want to make those dreams come true with you. I know I want to do more than photography with my life and I hope you stay by my side through it all. Wether it requires us to move, or even stay where we are. I want to Start a family with you, just the two of us and hopefully one day we can add to our
little family. One day I hope to be called Cassie Avery mercier. I know that day will come one day because I am NEVER leaving you. And I hope to god you won't ever leave me. Your the first guy that I feel like I love you actually means something. Sure I have said I love you to other people but it feels real with you. We relate in so many ways it's crazy. Being with you actually completes me. You are the missing puzzle piece to my puzzle. You make me smile every time I'm with you and that is something special to me. I like someone that makes me feel like I'm worth it, and that is definitely you. I love you with all of my heart Brice Peirce Mercier.

Love,
Your gf forever and ever.
(Cassie Avery Hanna) :))))


To Cassie, from Brice.


I love you so much baby:) you mean the whole wide world to me and I don't ever want to lose you:) I've only known you for two weeks and I have the most amazing feeling about. I feel like you are the one for me:) I feel happy and loved and i feel like you will actually treat me right and I really hope up never hurt me baby:) I love you with all my heart:) I won't hurt you baby I pinky promise:) I want you by my side for the rest of my life:) you complete me all the way:) I can't wait to have you sleep by side every night with me on our king size bed:) I love you don't ever forget and whenever you need anything from me just ask because I'm in love with my bestfriend:) I want you here with me forever because you are truly my one and only I love you baby:) I want you by my side and I want to be by yours:) I need you in my life because you are truly the one thing in this whole world galaxy universe and milky way not in correct order:) I love you with whole heart and soul :) I love you baby:) you are truly amazing and make me the happiest guy in the world:) you are everything I want and need:) you have a great personality and you are the absolute most beautiful girl in the universe:) you make me laugh and happy:) and you are the first person in this world to make either one of those happen for me:) I love absolutely everything about you:) your gorgeous:) your amazing:) I love you baby:)


I LOVE YOU:)


Love always your boyfriend and lover,

Brice Pierce Mercier

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Thank god for all his deeds
He got me through my time of needs.
I've always needed someone there
To guide me when I had that tare
He was there through my life
Even when I held the knife
No one understood why
But he watched me from the sky
He let me go to watch my ways
I ended up in a daze
The step from then to now
It made me realize how
How I should never just say goodbye
Because in the end that time will tick by.
Newer things will come by
But in the end I look to the sky
I found the true meaning to life
To be happy and play the fife
You never know who may come
They may actualy be that one.
I needed this so bad
For I have been way to sad
I fell in my pit
And lost all I had in it
My heart will soon stop
But until then I will not drop
I found my happiness
I found the greatest
I found my love
From that dove
It's a gift from god
Because I heknew I felt odd
He blessed me with life
And still tried to take it with a knife
He blessed me with love
That he sent from that dove
He blessed me with her
Because he knew I had a tear
I'm finally where I need to be
With her and with me
My soul and heart are at peace
Because I found the missing puzzle piece
Thank you lord for all that is
I don't deserve any of this
I'm finally happy and found that one
So I can always be your son
I love the way you bless me
I love how you pulled me out of my sea
I'm glad out of my misery
Thank for giving me sight so I could see
My heart is finally complete and whole
Because you took away that dark hole
You gave me someone to love.


This had a lot of feeling to it, and I absolutely love the person who wrote it.

Goodbyes Suck.

No one ever likes saying goodbye. It is my least favorite word. Saying goodbye to someone I love is very hard. But you have to look at it on the positive side. It's not a goodbye, it's a see yah later. Only fourteen days until I get to jump into your arms again. And than were together for like a week and a half. Why do we have to live so far apart though? I guess it's not that long, there could be longer. Like North Carolina and Atlanta, but I am only three hours away. I can't wait until I get to see his beautiful eyes again, the eyes that made me fall for him even more. I love you with all of my heart. BPM.

Lasting Forever.

If I could put life on pause right now I would so do it. I couldn't be any more happier than I already am. But once a good thing ends, a door just opens to another good thing. Now I can officially say that I am his. I have been waiting sixteen years for this day to come, to find my happy ever after. And I can definitely say that I have found it, him. He makes me smile, laugh, love, and be myself. Crazy how you can think something is just so perfect and than something new comes along and it makes you realize that you don't have it perfect quite yet.  You know how sometimes you wish you were in the life of a movie? Well I found the romance in my life that equals that of a movie. His name is Brice. He is my romance movie, my nicholas sparks romantic stories. Only one year. Three hundred and sixty five days, fifty something weeks, can I do it? Of course I can, I waited all this time to find this guy, I'm not gonna fuck it up because I'm impatient. But just think, once that year is over with, it will just be us. Forever. I know I am doing the right thing because all I can think of is him. Nobody else ever enters my mind when he's there, except for GOD of course. But like no guys what so ever enter my mind other than him. This is showing myself that I realy am ready for this guy. The love just feels magical, and never ending. Why did it have to take so long? I dont know, and I dont care because it is finally here. He is mine, and I am his. Forever from June 30th to the end. Brice Pierce Mercier