Fun fun fun.

Yay! The weekend of September 23rd through the 25th, I will be spending it with a dear old friend. HOPE SATTERFIELD! Although going to Atlanta to be with someone oter than Brice is a little weird. Will he find out I'm going and ask me to come see him on my way up there? I'm going to want to but will I? Probably not. I looked at pictures today. I know, bad bad bad mistake. I have ones he sent me, the ones of us together, the ones I sent him. Should I delete them? I should I keep them for memories? With all of the previous boyfriends I've always deleted the old stuff and just started off fresh. I bet it would be a hell of a lot easier for me that way. Maybe even block him on my Facebook because everytime I get on Facebook going to his profile is the FIRST thing I do. I can't help it, I gotta see him. I've been thinking about college lately. Would he come to me or would I have to go to him. My plans as of right now are to stay in Augusta and go to Augusta state university. Or maybe I could always go to him and go to a university down there. As much as I try to get over you I just can't. Everytime I try a memory pops up in my mind. Like that one time at art camp, air hockey. That was our thing. And ever since we shared that moment together, we play air hockey whenever tere was an air hockey table where we were at. Or maybe even when he came to Augusta the very first time and the last day we went to chili's. Oh my gosh we were lookin rough that day. And all we could do was laugh at each other. Recently we started this thing that every new place we go, we were going to go hiking together. Well I guess I can't share that with him anymore. Just by myself. I think about you everyday. Don't forget me. I wonder if he would every surprise me and drive up here? If our love was real something like that would happen. But I would never imagine him doing that. I broke his heart and broke mine as well. Mine will never be repairable.