No longer happy.

I told someone today that I was going to write a happy blog. But that happy blog turned into a terrible blog really fast. It went from being able to see him in four days back to eight days so fast. Why is it that only my mother supports my happiness. Nobody else does but her. No one has faith that it'll work but him and my dearest mommy. I am so happy with him and so devastated at the same time. Why is it I have to wait so long to be with him for forever. Yes he is now moving in when he turns eighteen but that is still so far away. Why can't he just come now. I am not going to be happy until I am with him forever. I feel like I am not even with him anymore because distance is keeping us so far apart. I feel like I would feel a little better about the situation if I were only a two and a half drive away from him. But I am not. I am a five hour drive from him. I was going to be able to be with him for a week but I can't. I can't because his mom said no. Why? He would still be going to school. He would still go to work the days he would be scheduled to go to. But no. I didn't know I could be so happy with someone and so sad too. It's not fair. I am done hurting inside over this. I am done feeling shitty EVERY day over this. It's either forever or never. Which is it going to be? Please don't keep me waiting anymore for the answer because there is no more time for an answer. I need it now. If I don't get an answer soon there is no more trying. I know what I want to happen. But will that happen? Will I get my happy ending? I guess we will know soon. I wish the odds of happiness were on my side. But I guess there not. Once I get my happiness it just gets torn away from me. Like someone pulled my feet right from underneath me so I would fall. I don't want to fall anymore. If I fall, who will be there to catch me. If he's not with me, he won't be there to catch me. He is my bestfriend and my boyfriend. And now, I don't have a bestfriend or a boyfriend with me. We are many miles apart. Please come be with me. So we can start our happy ending. Just the two of us.